Fat Girl Reform

UPDATE (after 8 months of hiatus)

Fri, 18 Nov 2011 12:57:01 -0500

I’m in a completely different (MUCH more positive) mindset than I was 8 months ago. So many things eventually changed for the better but I had to endure a while of general cruddiness to make it here. Now that I’m on the much better side of the tunnel, I’m ready to re-dedicate myself to my health. This time it isn’t about weight - it’s about health (though I won’t deny that I still love seeing the number go down) because I’ve come to love my body and embrace it in all its forms.

I’ve been steadily hovering around 266 - 270 (and Yes! That means I’ve lost 100 lbs so far!!). In the next couple of days I’m gonna make an entirely new blog, focused on the health and well-being of my body, mind and spirit. You’ll see what I’m talking about once I actually start the blog.

Just wanted to let anyone who still follows me to know that I’ll be back in a shortly!

Chi-Running = Meditation + Jogging

Thu, 24 Feb 2011 15:08:12 -0500

Chi-Running = Meditation + Jogging:

fuckyeahmeditation:

“Hitting the pavement as they say is a great way to get back into shape. I know this is true as I used to be a marathon runner. Before I made the transition into yoga it was all I really did for activity until I saw the toll that it was taking on my body. My knees, my ankles—I felt way older than I should have. So I gave it up until I came across the Chi Running. Chi Running is a great yoga combo because it teaches you to relax while you’re running, making it almost meditative and rather relaxing.”

Doing a research paper on MSG...

Thu, 24 Feb 2011 14:23:06 -0500

and it’s making me so paranoid of absolutely everything I eat. O___________O

It’s so hard to avoid!

get-to-know-you-fitblr-survey:

1. what school do you go to?
2. what are you studying?
3. what do you do for FUN?
4. what's your favorite exercise?
5. what's your favorite healthy food?
6. favorite color?
7. ONE THING that has been most helpful to you in getting healthy?
8. your best work-out cardio song recommendation?

post your answers & ask another fitblr 8 questions anon style!

Wed, 23 Feb 2011 23:51:00 -0500

D’awww how’d you know I love surveys? (Prolly ‘cause I posted one not too long ago.) I feel so special. ^.^

Let’s see here…

1. what school do you go to? Marshall University in Huntington, WV (Plz2not find and kill me)

2. what are you studying? Photography and graphic design

3. what do you do for FUN? Honestly? Hang out with my boyfriend and smoke weed and play video games and jam to sweet tunes and do arts. :>

4. what’s your favorite exercise? I absolutely love listening to awesome music on the elliptical. It’s basically like dancing, especially with songs with a faster beat. I get down.

5. what’s your favorite healthy food? Sushi fa sho.

6. favorite color? It was red for a long time, but this is a new time in my life and my new favorite color is turquoise/teal.

7. ONE THING that has been most helpful to you in getting healthy? Focusing on getting healthy and not just losing weight. Turns out when you eat healthier and exercise, weight loss happens naturally. I used to obsess about numbers but just focusing on getting healthy has really chilled me out about it.

8. your best work-out cardio song recommendation?
THIS:

EDIT: Yeah can I go ahead and change that to this: (I will be eternally indecisive about this)

First appointment with my psychologist in over a year

Wed, 23 Feb 2011 11:34:19 -0500

I’m so excited! I know that sounds weird, but I used to go talk to her every week since I was 13. I haven’t been able to go see her for a year because I don’t have health insurance (booo) and I have to pay out of pocket to see her this time, but it’s totally worth it. I have way too much to catch her up on. I have so much advice I need from her.

Health & Happiness from the Kitchen.: I Pledge

Tue, 22 Feb 2011 02:35:57 -0500

Health & Happiness from the Kitchen.: I Pledge:

smaller-n-smaller:

— To love myself completely. Yup, there will be days I feel ~~puffy~~ fat, or my face will be spotty, but I will still love myself.

— To nourish and not starve my body. After doing this 2 weeks of maintenance eating I realized how much food my body really needs. (i.e. listen to Alex/…

This times one million.

Dearest Fitbud,

Tue, 22 Feb 2011 00:33:39 -0500

First off, thanks for the motivation! True dat, double true.

Secondly, yes my weekend was AWESOME. But I’m back into gear now. My goals for this week are:

Finish my homework on time (preferably early)
Work out at least 5 days.
Eat well.
Keep myself accountable.
Minimal video games.

As long as I stick to those goals this week will be phenomenal. :>

Love,
Kati

I miss accountability.

Mon, 21 Feb 2011 23:35:51 -0500

So here’s some proof of my workout tonight. I did 30 minutes on the elliptical and ?? reps of various arm exercises (I didn’t keep track, but I’m guessing it was around 70 reps all together). I kept it kinda easy compared to how I used to kick it at the gym, but I’m slowly getting back into the groove of exercise.

And as you’ll see, more proof in the form of my ~~ball o’ poof~~ hair. It pretty much explodes when I work out.

VACATION OVER. :( But it was way fun.Pictures!

Mon, 21 Feb 2011 22:03:00 -0500

Sunrise from the balcony of the cabin

View from the cabin living room

My niece Emma

My mom and my niece Uma

Sam (needs a haircut) D'awwwwww

(Sam's in the backseat)

(Ignore the hair, I slept with it wet)

Sammy :3

VACATION OVER. :( But it was way fun.

Pictures!

Finally home,

Mon, 21 Feb 2011 18:31:42 -0500

we got lost and it turned a 5 hour car ride into a 7 hour one. O____O

On my agenda tonight:

Finish my project for Design class.
Go to the gym.
Upload pictures to tumblr.

Chillin’ with some coffee and waiting to get back into the hot...

Sat, 19 Feb 2011 08:25:34 -0500

Chillin’ with some coffee and waiting to get back into the hot tub when it’s not boiling lava hot. The mountains are behind me here but so is the sun so you can’t see anything. Got some awesome shots of the sunrise this morning, I’ll post them later with some other pictures. :>

You look really amazing!!

PS: Your room is totes cool. I love the tapestry!

Thu, 17 Feb 2011 20:14:06 -0500

Why thank you Ms. (Mr?) Anon. I love it too. :>

Step 1 to Genuine Happiness: Clean Room

Thu, 17 Feb 2011 17:44:31 -0500

The state of my room reflects the state of my mind pretty much exactly. So over the course of this week I’ve been slowly cleaning my room (because I’ve been way too busy/lazy to do it all in one go).

Here is what it looked like before (yes I know it was atrocious):

And this is my room now:

MUCH better. And I feel so much better going in there. I guess my room was such a mess because for a while there I only went into my room to change or to sleep. Now it’s so relaxing and wonderful. I love it. :>

BTW, I finally got my fancy new camera. It rocks.

personalcity: caloriequeen: DO...

Thu, 17 Feb 2011 16:23:44 -0500

personalcity:

caloriequeen:

DO IT

fat-chance:

underdognomore:

activeartist:

Pound For Pound Challenge Update! When I joined this morning we had pledged as a team less than 1000 lbs. Look at us now!

TOP 25 TEAMS IN AMERICA! Way to “BE ACTIVE” fitblrs!

(Think we can crack the top 10 by the end of the day?)

Click here to join.

I pledged 15lbs earlier today. When I did it we were ranked 94th! Look at us go!

Heck yes! I just pledged 15 lbs too. WAY TO GO, FITBLRS!

Just pledged 30 pounds. I’m excited to get there!

Pledged 50 pounds!

As I am reading your last post.... GOOOO YOUUUU. :) I hope your midterm went well! :)
It's SO hard to focus on your goals of weight loss when you have a million other things to do. And i find that in the busiest times, my motivation gets squeezed out of my brain so I have room to think about something else. So I will be sending you reminders of why losing weight is worth it. Motivational Reminder #1: Swimsuit season is coming up.
-Fitbud

Thu, 17 Feb 2011 15:32:13 -0500

My midterm went really well, I think I aced it. I’ve been really productive this week and I love it! :D It’s amazing how much less stressed I am when I get stuff done before the last minute.

And thank you for the reminder! Speaking of which, I’ll be in a swimsuit this weekend, but it’s just in front of my family so IDGAF. :P

We’re going to the Smoky Mountains this weekend and renting out an awesome cabin. I’m so excited! The cabin we’re renting has a jacuzzi and a heated pool. I have a feeling I’m gonna be spending a lot of this weekend right here:

Awesome.

And there are a bunch of hiking trails around there so I’m gonna go on a hike with Sam and take tons of pictures.

Anyway, thanks for the messages, they really cheer me up. :)

fuckyeahmeditation: I’ve found that the key to being healthy is to make healthy things indulgent,...

Wed, 16 Feb 2011 18:40:34 -0500

fuckyeahmeditation:

I’ve found that the key to being healthy is to make healthy things indulgent, and then be free to be a glutton.
Reward yourself with meditation,
Indulge in exercise,
Treat yourself to wholesome foods.

I'm still here,

Wed, 16 Feb 2011 09:09:54 -0500

and I’m doing really well. I’ve had to put tumblr on the backburner again this week because I’ve been so busy. Three big art projects, a paper, and a midterm exam all in one week is EXTREME. But I’m finally getting used to having school and being healthy at the same time. Like I said before, I’m taking baby steps, so I’m definitely not perfect yet. I haven’t worked out this week other than the walk I took with Sam on Valentine’s Day, but I’ve 1) Eaten healthy, and 2) Gotten all my school work finished on time, so 2 out of 3 isn’t so bad. I’ll update again later when I don’t have 5 hours to study for a midterm AND finish a project for drawing. Le sigh..

Happy Valentines Day!!! If you haven't exercised today yet, go give your body some love by taking a brisk walk! <3
-Fitbud

Tue, 15 Feb 2011 21:17:15 -0500

Thank you!! Sorry for posting this a day late, yesterday was wayyy busy for me. But I did see this yesterday, and I took a walk with Sam. It was so beautiful out yesterday. So thank you for the suggestion. I wouldn’t have taken the time out of my day to do that if you hadn’t. <3

Hey! Idk if you already have one (I don't think you do), but I have decided to be your fitbud! You seem to be having some trouble lately and I think you could use the encouragement. :)) Anyways. Hope you are getting your life together okay! Don't stay away from the blog too long. It always helps to blog through the bad times. :)
-your fitbud.

Mon, 14 Feb 2011 01:43:09 -0500

Oh my god, yes! You are exactly what I need. I really wanted to join fitblr buddies but I forgot about the deadline and didn’t sign up in time. It’s so sweet of you to just decide to be my fitbud. :>

Yes, I’ve been having tons of trouble lately. I guess since you’re my fitbud I can spill my guts to you. The past two weeks have gone to shit. I’ve been keeping myself artificially happy with junk food and video games and other such indulgences, just enough to keep me feeling content. But I’m not. I’m so stressed out at school and it’s so much easier to eat like a pig and ignore all responsibility than it is to make myself genuinely happy by fulfilling my goals.
But that’s the key word there, it’s easy. I decided a long ago I would not take the easy route, no matter what.

I want to be genuinely happy again. I want to work hard and not have to rely on artificial happiness. I want a peaceful mind.

And I also realized that I have been taking on too much at once again. I royally fuck up, and instead of saying “it’s okay, I’ll just start slowly by starting to exercise again and by eating the way I used to,” I decided that I would start a super-strict detox and start trying to run. Both failed miserably. But that’s the only way I’ve gotten anywhere in life so far. I fail miserably, then I learn from my mistakes and I thrive. I’m not ashamed of failing because something good has always come from it.

Long story short, I’m taking this baby steps at a time. And I have every intention of recording each step somehow, to show you that I have achieved it. I feel like this small break from tumblr was something I really needed, but at the same time, not posting about what I’ve been up to lately has taken the guilt away from my bad habits, and that’s not what I need. I need you on my ass about everything. For real.

Anyway, thank you so so so so much for this, it was really what I needed. I’m so excited to talk to you! :)

Regaining control of my life

Sun, 13 Feb 2011 13:17:41 -0500

right the fuck now.