Anonymous asked: Hey! Idk if you already have one (I don't think you do), but I have decided to be your fitbud! You seem to be having some trouble lately and I think you could use the encouragement. :)) Anyways. Hope you are getting your life together okay! Don't stay away from the blog too long. It always helps to blog through the bad times. :)
-your fitbud.

Oh my god, yes! You are exactly what I need. I really wanted to join fitblr buddies but I forgot about the deadline and didn’t sign up in time. It’s so sweet of you to just decide to be my fitbud. :>

Yes, I’ve been having tons of trouble lately. I guess since you’re my fitbud I can spill my guts to you. The past two weeks have gone to shit. I’ve been keeping myself artificially happy with junk food and video games and other such indulgences, just enough to keep me feeling content. But I’m not. I’m so stressed out at school and it’s so much easier to eat like a pig and ignore all responsibility than it is to make myself genuinely happy by fulfilling my goals.
But that’s the key word there, it’s easy. I decided a long ago I would not take the easy route, no matter what.

I want to be genuinely happy again. I want to work hard and not have to rely on artificial happiness. I want a peaceful mind.

And I also realized that I have been taking on too much at once again. I royally fuck up, and instead of saying “it’s okay, I’ll just start slowly by starting to exercise again and by eating the way I used to,” I decided that I would start a super-strict detox and start trying to run. Both failed miserably. But that’s the only way I’ve gotten anywhere in life so far. I fail miserably, then I learn from my mistakes and I thrive. I’m not ashamed of failing because something good has always come from it.

Long story short, I’m taking this baby steps at a time. And I have every intention of recording each step somehow, to show you that I have achieved it. I feel like this small break from tumblr was something I really needed, but at the same time, not posting about what I’ve been up to lately has taken the guilt away from my bad habits, and that’s not what I need. I need you on my ass about everything. For real.

Anyway, thank you so so so so much for this, it was really what I needed. I’m so excited to talk to you! :)