Sorry for my melodrama earlier. For the past year or so I’ve been able to successfully handle meltdowns like that, and I can officially say this one is handled too. I feel kind of embarrassed for spilling my guts like that, but I really needed it. You guys have no idea how much your encouragement helped. I don’t wanna spam everyone’s dash with replies but I do want to thank everyone personally. I will, a little later.

 After I wrote that post I wallowed in my emotions a little longer and after letting myself chill a little bit I started feeling better. I meditated for about 20 minutes and I felt so amazing afterward. My mind was so clear. All the negativity vanished.

And then I did it. I just plowed through all of the work I had to catch up on. I just fucking did it. It was awesome. It feels soooo good to be caught up. I literally have nothing I have to do for the rest of the night. Amazing.

I wanted to go running earlier when it was nice out but I had to let my phone charge so I could listen to music while I ran, and now it’s dark out and about to snow, but I’m going to run anyway. I’m going to the gym and I’m gonna run as long as I possibly can.